I should have been focusing on the happy, joyful, and beautiful aspects of getting married to the man of my dreams-- but I had to consume myself with planning for the worst with my mother. Knowing how she has gone off the deep end in the past, I wouldn't put anything past her. I also had concerns about my brother not attending due to my step-sister's accusations-- and my Dad telling me that my brother wouldn't be allowed to attend if he didn't rectify the situation to my step-mother's and step-sister's satisfaction. I was very angry that my Dad was trying to control my life still, on a day that should be all about ME and my FIANCE. If I tried to approach the topic with my Dad, that I want my brother there no matter what, he would change the subject or say that it's all up to my brother ("he knows what he has to do", my Dad would say over and over).
Such a dark cloud was placed over me during a time of such happiness. As much as I tried to enjoy myself, I would be knocked down with news about my mother, my step-sister, my step-mother, father... and as much as I would try to shake it, I couldn't. I was surrounded by these negative factors that I couldn't pull myself out of unless we just planned to elope. My fiance had always dreamed of having his father as his best man, so I certainly didn't want to ask him to give that up. And the wedding had gotten too far into the planning stage to elope. So, the show must go on.
My step-mother was about as supportive as a gnat, meeting me for lunch to tell me that I have to just think that my mother is dead. She even said that I should wish for her to be dead as that is the best thing that could happen to me. The audacity of this lady! And then when we had our rehearsal, my step-sister AND step-mother had the audacity to ask me where my brother is, and they acted surprised to hear he wasn't coming. Yea, right, like they didn't know. They were the driving force behind him NOT being present. Do they think I am stupid!?
The wedding went off without a hitch. My mother didn't show up with her entourage to crash the wedding. I lamented about my brother not being present, but he was in my heart and soul. I was in heaven, dancing with my new husband, enjoying ourselves in one of our favorite locations, and thinking of our bright future ahead. We had a sunny honeymoon and thoroughly enjoyed our new lives as husband and wife.