I tell my Dad my decision, and he was very upset about it. I don't remember all I said to him, but I know that he made a selfish decision to marry my step-mother, and as a result, I made a selfish decision to move out. Now, that's key too. I didn't choose to move in with my mother because I wanted to be with my mother. I moved in with my mother to get away from my step-mother (and step-sister too on a lesser level). I think my mother deep-down knew this, but I also think that she SO BADLY wanted to get back at my Dad that she would take what she got.
When I moved out of my Dad's, no one was there to help me. I was alone, gathering my things. That day was very strange, and I remember not getting all of my "stuff" (like toys and odds & ends) as I thought I would always be able to get them whenever or come over to play with them whenever (I am now 14 years old). I was wrong about that.
Anyway, I move in with my mother and step-father, and everything seems copacetic until the day of court, when the custody was changed over officially. As we were driving away from the courthouse, my mother turns to me and says, "Now that we have custody of you, we are thinking of moving out of state". I was really taken back as it suddenly seemed that her offer for me to move in was a ploy to get me as far away from my Dad as possible. I said to her, "I didn't move in with you to move away", and she almost leaped into the backseat at me. See subsequent blog entry: Borderline Mother Alienates Daughter
She was enraged and repeated what I said in a loud and angry tone. I didn't understand why she was so pissed off at me, but she had my step-father pull over and she reamed me, saying how selfish I am, how I am living with them now and that I have to go where they go where ever that may be, and that she can't believe I just said that to her. I didn't realize this is the way my life would be for the next 3 years.
"Like a cat with a mouse, the borderline mother may lie and wait, pouncing when the child least expects it, deceiving the child into believing that she is no longer angry, and then unleashing her rage" p 130 Lawson. She definitely set the stage for this-- being very kind and considerate, as well as listening & being empathetic when I was going through challenges with my new step-mother, and then changing into the Witch when I made the move to live with her. Her desperate fear of abandonment compounded with the rage of betrayal set the stage even further. “The issue of betrayal is critical to understanding the dynamics between borderline mother and heir children. The borderline’s sensitivity to betrayal results in paranoid accusations, annihilating rage, and abandonment of the offending party” P 42 Lawson.